maaispacee

2010-01-26T06:32:00.000-08:00

it has been awhile since i last updated my blog here.. to all thise who knows..apart from me having a personal blog that nobody elso know except for me myself.. its because one of my closest person passed away.. on the 23rd january 2010.. haish.. to all those who tagg my blog..ella/zul..
thankyou so much..

indeed its a big blow for me and family due to many death happening..
indeed im very weak now..
its hard to handle this blow..but i know sooner or later we'll adapt to it.
maybe not yet cause she has been apart of our daily routine each days.. so w/o her its a hard thing to swallow.. insya'allah everything will be okae..
have taken a few days off from school,cause i know even if i were to go to school yet.. i wont be able to concentrate.. haish..
daddy gave me that permission,cause im close to grandma..
haish..

i wish everything is just a dream..
& everything will be okae again after i woke up..
but i know..
sooner or later i have to accept the fact that she's no longer here..
somehow i wish i can hear her lectures again..
but i guess now all ii can do is to pray for herr.
and live my best till my last breathe..
seeing her lying on the bed,
make me realise that i have taken things for granted..

to my friends who came to pay a visit..thankyou so muchh..
ii appreciate it..even if you just came just to say or anything..
its truly appreciated..

2010-01-13T20:42:00.000-08:00

2010-01-12T19:30:00.001-08:00

2010-01-03T00:04:00.000-08:00

last day of holidayy and in less than 24 hours a new chapter will start to open. School's gonna reopen and jyeahh i mish my people..not to mention the lecturers, and coursemates too..
whenever i had this on my mind, butterflies will keep flying on my stomache.. nervous,scared and a few more emotions and feelings merging together.
but the most one is HAPPY..jyeahh..my mind gonna filled with schools stuff and friends to make my day. weee..:D
to lovable coursemates, see ya tomorrow:D..

date to be noted down: 9jan2010 (maman's engagement/ alia's 6th birthday.

[baby,everythings gonna be better for both of us..hopefully]

I'm back people<3

2009-12-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile I've not been updating my blog. Dearest bloggy & dearest friends.. Thank you for communicating on my chatbox. Saranghae<3

Many ups and down has happen in my life.. But I guess there's just too much to update you guys in one time. Those who know me will know what has been bothering me for the past few days, months and maybe years.
Till then<3

2009-12-24T05:20:00.000-08:00

hey PeOPLE~!1.. im baacckk!!!..heheee..
5days vacation to mlaysia was super great,except for the fact for those nightmares i had and also body temperature running..ermm..caugh fever there..but nahh..its okae..its worth it,and im recovering..insya'allah..
Hmm.. below will be some pictures which i've uploaded throughout the journey..snap,snap..there are some at dad's camera.. will upload laterh okae??..
first on the list..to GunungLedang..
took a group picture there..dadie snap2..hehee..i don't realise that mai hair is growing longer and yea... after snap that picture..walk to our destination.. and yeahhh.. off to go inside..wooshh.::P
spent the whole afternoon there..great..had lots of fun exploring with cuzzies...and yeahh have i told you above people are from mum's side..love each one of them cause they just make us smile and goo-goo-LA-LA:))

2009-12-22T07:39:00.000-08:00

heyhoo people..it will be 23rd of december soon and within a few hours i'll be out of singapore for a period of time.within one week or perhaps more.. then i'll be back..
and to my coursemate.. school's going to reopen on the 4thjan2010..so jyeahh..
meet up soon people..and lovely gurfy2.
and to wanie..
once again congrats on your engagement...
though i will not be there to see you both...exchanging those ring..
i wish both of ya best wishes..and are being bless without any hardship nor obstacles..
may you both last till infinity..best wishes..Syazwani & Firdaus.
to dearie monyetku..takekaire okae..will text you as soon as im back oukeyh...

2009-12-19T07:16:00.000-08:00

phew..its over now.. now that we've settle everything that have been stuck and being buried deep down inside our heart.. may our days together ahead going to be a blissful one..and jyeah..bby.INyou in my life chapter and if the chapter of you gonna end.. i just want to let you know that i meant everytime i said those words..i mean every words i say. for now,lets just concentrate of just me and you and the days ahead of us...ILyouu deariee.. 261 days today..and yeah..let the days continue..

& jyeahh before i forgot..bytch if you're reading this... don't let me hear any word or things bout you..cause gal.. you've crossed my line..get that clear oukeyh?? don't wish to elaborate more... thoughts of her make my heart boilt..so yeahh.. just telling you this keyh byatch?!

and yeahh..last but not least i want to wish this two..above.. "cmat bertunang" . congrats on it okeyh.. may both your love last till infinity and im sorry cause im unable to attend on your special days... will be out of country..so yeahh..happie hapie clalu...okeyh.
Syazwani & Firdaus.

2009-12-17T04:50:00.000-08:00

happie monthsary to double'S'

Suryanie & Syakir..

may your love end till infinity..

and IMY twoo..

2009-12-16T05:56:00.000-08:00

everything happen for a reason..and jyeahh.. im using the picture above to motivate me in never giving up... in anything.. to stand up back once again after falling. though it hurts deep down inside,and perhaps burning...all i can do is shed a tears.

right now im breaking apart..somehow or ever i have this feeling that perhaps you and me will be gone.. we'll go our own life again and starting back as a stranger..

imy..iny.. but now im only left with hopes...and miracles to make us back.

2009-12-14T08:12:00.000-08:00

is he happy now with me?..
or maybe im making his heart to fade away..
due to jealousy and too scared of losing.

ii just have this strong feeling..that eu getting far eventhough you are just beside me..

2009-12-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

heyhoo humans living on the earth..and heyhoo to lovable people who know me..

oops..before that i've forgotten to sasy...i've made up my mind that today gonna be my last day of using facebook..will log in..but not as frequently as what i've been doing..

and yeahh..this pichas was takenn on the day of abg Imran's weddin..

as you can see Tuhfahh..the cutest bby..rite?..hehee..

okae shux!!im beiing lame ryte now but yeahh..normal..when boredom strikes..

haishh..holidae are superhh the bored.. been spending most of my time with familie... and yeahh..mumie and dadie are beta now..much better...

can easily haf a talk wif them and jokes..hhehe..just tt my bonding with my sister is not there yet..ii mean my elder sister.
okluhh..thers nth fer me to post...aoart from toking craps heree..hehee..

okiluhh till next time people..

2009-12-12T08:56:00.000-08:00

heyhhoo people~!!its a day after the class gathering..oopss..i mean its a day after the animation's group gathering... the 2009 january intake class together with the C.A and also some of our senior..

okae..gonna share a bit of what took place yesterday... boify fetch me from my bustop..slack with him for awhile and yeahh..meet up with Niseh and Aicha..
woohoo..niseh was early today and yeahh..while waiting for aicha..3 of us

slack at bustop awhile but halfway through love went home... he hasn't been sleeping enough so yeahh.. ask him to go and rest awhile..slack..slack..slackk..and as soon as aicha reach..we went to haunt for the factory..i mean the satay factoryy..walk..walk..walk..and yeahh..LOST~!..
hehee..and yeahh have i told you that 3 of us are wearing purple??.. its not plan Oukeyh~!! and yeahh its Dee's fav colour..wish she was here with us..trust me we will have more fun with her around..
okaee.. we call and call..the place...like some foreigner..walk quite some distance..make up's gone and sweating abit..called up Love to ask for his help...and guess what??..The place is nearr ..just behind our school..WTF ryte??..i know..

hehee.. took satay and off to go shoppping with MsSri.. shop for barbecue stuff..shop..shop and yeahh went off to ECP..wee..hehee..
and yeahh reach there...slack...help out abit here and there...play with the sand..water and we watch sunset together..how sweet... if only love was here..hehee:P
okaeluhh to cut it short.. slack till daddie fetch me..
had superh fun..but yahh..there are some part which i find it irritating..but yeah chose to ignore.. don't wish to spoil my mood cause of a bunch of one inmature human...
okaeluh..shall end it here..tc people..
to Love/;ILYsm..

2009-12-09T07:19:00.000-08:00

i have this thought to endure all this..but now here i am.. admitting defeat to my own emotions.

i don't really know the real reason im acting this way,,being rebellious and trying hard to endure allthis by myself.

fighting this negative thoughts to a positive one.

it has been awhile since i last blog..thought to bid-goodbye with it.. but then i don't know why im here updating it..people says i have change..no longer a girl that they last know... im slowly changing to be someone different...only god knows what's in my mind..parents have been a real understandiing in this...talk to mum as i have nobody else...apart from that i just dont wish to trouble or make it known to people..they saw my tears rolling down..but they gave me time to let it out to them..and i just know that they too realise those change in me eversince a few days back... even if i don't utter a word..they know...cause parents know their children the best.

Now that they know what's bothering me...they gave me words of advise..and they even say that they just want to see me like i used to.. can i?..idk..friends..relationship..ii just cant stop thinking.

okae shoots...

im out of words now..

tomorrow having a class gatheing..

at ECP..missing everyOne of tem.. naah..not everione..mostly..

hopefully everythings going to go smoothly..

2009-12-03T08:21:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder if you know whats inside me..
and how is it feel to be treated like tt..

2009-12-01T01:17:00.000-08:00

_((Trust ist something which you gain by your actions. it's like a vase, once broken..though you can fix it back..it will neva be the same))_
remember a Heart is fragile,dun break it..once you do..its gnna tke a period of time to heal it.]]
its not only meant fer a relationship,bt for friendship tooh~!

huhuu...lalalaa..its 1st december todayy..
and yeahh,that means a lot..cause in a few more days,,its gonna be 2010..
and not forgtten,exam are just tomorrow~!!..
though its just gnna be just multiple choice..but dhhurhh~!!.. its 40%!!
okae sux.. iim only half way through studying and yeahh.. thot of bloggin..cause its been awhile since i last blog ryte..
okaee2..

anyway to a friend..
though the surrounding not gonna be the same with out you..
but just a request from me..
come for the barbecue okae...

and to bbie..
mai love grows deeper for eu as days passed by..
though there are some obstacles that we've faced..
ii just wanna you to know that
im still here..
and hopefully eu wil still remain there..
remain by my side
ilyou..SO.Muchh~!!

2009-11-25T10:07:00.000-08:00

haloo people~!!
anyway this post gonna just be a short post..
happy 8th minthsary dear,
thru thick & thin we endure togetha till it is now 8th monthh..
people say that fight and misunderstnding btween couple is tha same like adding spices to your food.. whether its spicy,bitter or others..
as long as we gt trust,insya'allah we can go thru any obstacles in the future..ILOVEYOUU
and to bbyMariam & kakak,macehh shyng.. uu've neva frgtten our dates..Imyou so much bbyy..and jyeahh mit up soonn.

2009-11-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

HalooooooooOoO~!!

2009-11-22T10:12:00.000-08:00

aloo peoplee~!!
huhuu,its been ahile since ii last updated..
gawshh..been trying hard to do all skool's work and also trying to remember which assignmnt ii havnt do cause ii slacked too much last term..
haishh..scarie.. rite now its 2 plus in the mwninkk..and im still awake..
doingg mai photoshop stuff cause mai file was corruupted and i've yet to save it..gawsh!!.
blog awhile here..and yeahh off to do the skool werk backk..
bbie werkin nite shift..so...yahh..resting now..
and not to forgt..boredom totallie strikes mie tonite..
all mai ynger siblings went to slipover ma granny house..and yeahh left me and ma elder sista at home..wif our parent..
the house..TOTALIE.. a pin drop of silent..
tats so random and im not use to it..
okiieokii
to BbieDearr..Ily so muchh..
im goin backk to do maii stuff..
will update soon okeyh??

death..
now that a few of mai frens haf passed away..
im afraid..
for mine to come..
i've done many sins..
which i havent repent..
i will ii be next to go??..
im afraid..

2009-11-17T19:36:00.000-08:00

aloo~!! peoplee..

im now at skool's lab and yeahhh..

update using school's comp cause ii neva bring mine...bored~!!

reach skool late and yeahh..as usual..theoryy and do some flash work..

haishh,ii realie got nth to do..cause mai file are saved at ma lappyy..

bored~!!bored~!!..

anyway the reason why i came late was that ii wanna spent time with granny just now..

she's a bit okae..and yeahh..waited till she finish taking her medc and off..to skool..

and yeahh...

before ii frgtten..

to all muslim reader who are reading this... ii hope eu can help a hand by recite the prayer for a friend of mie who has just passed away...his known as "sakai"

may allah blessed his soul and lesser his punishment...amin..

okaeluhh tts all for now..will update again later kae??

and to bbieLove...

tell u i love u every night

What would Love be without the silly fights

Without something to make it right

I'm glad the fights happened

Or we wouldn't be as strong as we are now

We stay up all night talking

But what we talk about is nothing

But the nothings are everything

To show the thought each of us care

I love you without regret

I've felt this way about you since

We first met

No words can express

None so true

You might say

I'm crazy

Yea your right just crazy about you

2009-11-17T09:00:00.001-08:00

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2009-11-17T07:04:00.000-08:00

heyhOOo PEOPLE..
im currently at home now... haishh..feeling exhausted..i dunnoe why..mayb apart from schools..i also did some thinking and perhaps that makes mai mind so tire out.
stayed at school till 8 p.m and bbie fetch me from school.thnks bbie,appreciatee it muchh.
by the way school was oke till nearlie till the end of the dae when my assignmnt fiile was corrupted and worse still.. ii has yet to save it... f**k ryte??
haishh..
just a random ting..wat will u do if uu tend to lose a person whom uu are close with?,
apart from your parents.. can eur mind focus on sumwher else?..haish..idk..ii mean shes a lady whom ii treasure, and im closer with her from my own parents.she has also been the pillar for my strength whenever im down and having crisis with mai parents. seeing here lying...makee me realise how much im gonna mish her and how much i treasure her...
haish~!
to my syg whose now aslip..
thanks bbie for everitink tt eu've done..and eu've watched the slideshow movie iii create for us..it does meanss alot to me...IMYsoMuchh & ilyt.

2009-11-15T18:35:00.000-08:00

HALOooOOo~!!!!
im posting here at school right now at school's lab..
Bored~!!Bored~!bored~!!..
haishh..idunnoe..
ii got this feeling that sumtink is wrng sumwher but then..haish~!!
anyway reach skool abit late todae..about 0915..
dadie sent me todaee..hehee..cause his on leave for 2 daes..
waaahh..
btw todae's Love first day after transferring out..
so best of Luckk taw sygg~!!..ILY~!!IMY~!!
and to bbyGF..imy~!!!.. meet you up soon okaee dearr..

okae luhh peoplee..got to goo..tkinkairee:))

ANYWAY HAF II TOLD EUU PEOPLE THAT MAI COUGHING ARE GHETTING FROM BAD TO WORSE?~!!!.. pain siaaa..

2009-11-13T08:25:00.000-08:00

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hOlaahuuu..lovable people on earthh..
lets summarise what took place juzt now okeyh?..
woke up earlie and slacked wif Love at UBI area..cause ther are plenty of shops therr..
and yeahh,Love sent me to skool..
pity bbyLove..cause his supposed to sleep at this time..
but..instead..woke up early just to sent mii to skool..
HaPIe Burfdae SHYNG~!!!
anyway rch skool and scan my "walk cycle assignmnt..and yahh gtten ma test result..gawshh..33/85??haishh..
niwaw went out with ahboi and BBieL..
clbrate bbie's bufdaee,,supperh funn..
aniwae will updte more nxt tym k?..
baby,iloveyou

2009-11-12T08:00:00.000-08:00

I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know.

On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you
ILYouu~!!

hapie burfdae sygg..Ily more than werds can ever describe...

been having stuppid coughh,and many other remix sickness..HATE IT~!!... just now had test at class during DMI..superrhh hard..but ii noe ii did mai best.. rite??..
with bby and familie support..thanks lovable people..
best of luck fer the result tmrw kaee..(best wishes coursemates:)

ii deleted mai cbox..not that ii am a coward neither ii am wateva eu wanna sae..but then ii dun wanna entertain "NETgangster"..too bad..not mee.. so dun let me found out hu eu aree..cause im aint gnna make eur life as easy like now.." :)sorri babyL..

anyway before ii forgt..to that "MATrep"..sorri uhh joyy,aquu taq aen uhh matREP" dalam net..
aqu tawuu aquu ader cibai?..asl?..qaoo tkd??..huahuaa..lek uhh joy,tkmu uat kecoh pt blg kuu..
law qao ader bnda yg qao nk bebual..bebual dpn2 uhh sakk.. asl nonekk tqd pe?~!!..
paisey uh joy,lao qao btl aderr nonekk,bbual..jgn naq jd adeq2 smbnyi blkng net kae??..kntal taww..huahuaa..

2009-11-11T17:53:00.000-08:00

must we start to treasure things/people us after we are going to lose them?..

anyway sorry for not being able to update a few days back..been busy with many stuff and keep falling sick all the time nowadays..haish..and also whenever i intend of updating my blog...my mind went blank..as thes nothing much to be updated..though many things happen in my life..don't intend to type it all here..let it be unknown yarh to readers.. :p
currently at school now,updating here for awhile and soon gonna continue revise for my test which is in a few hours time...wish me luck okae??..
heheex..
anyway its Love burfdae tmrw..
so bbieLove..
Happie burfdae to you..
happie burfdae to you..
happie burfdae to Bbie..
happie burfdae to you..

Iloveyou more than anything else..:)

2009-11-04T20:55:00.000-08:00

HaLooOhAlOOOoo

..im here posting while waiting for my class to start..

lunch time,but trust me..ii gt no mood and appetite to eat..

mumie's worried bout me...she msg me askin am ii getting any better and if i wanna go home or not..haishh...ii have to lie to her..saying im fine..cause ii dunwan to go home early.. school's work will keep me busy...only gawd knows..

haish,parents has given me their moral support.tryin to give me space to study..and understand my course..but idk,ii should be hapie ryte??.. but im crying deep down inside...just need to pretend for a few more hours...pleasee..do me a favour... ii dun wish to breakdwn now..noo..

haishh..okaeluhh im goin off to toilet now...

2009-11-04T06:56:00.000-08:00

ii remember that we both started as a friend...who may have wonder that we will fall and get into a relationship...time does flies so fast and now we are heading for our 8th monthh..
its gonna approach a year soon..
due to the upcomin exams and piles of assignment,we have to sacrifice our time being together.
ii wonder how its gonna be like..ii mean we met up almost everyday..haishh..missing hymm loads~!!ii wonder if euu miss mee too..hehee..we'll meet up soon okae bby?..

haishh,exams are just arnd the crner and im yet to preparee...many things..LOTS ~!!..
theory are yet to be revised,assignments are yet to be completed..haishh,those assignemnt that we had..may souund easy..but then..its superhh hard..yeahh~!!..tryingg,with the help of peoples arnd miee...haishh,can ii make it to the next level?..can ii??
niwee bbyGf finishin her paperii mean my brain are tired,hasn't had a real sleep for quite sumtymee..haishh..
need to revenge my sleepp..hmm
to bbyGF.. she's finishinn her pper soonn..IMyy~!!and yeahh can't wait for the gathering..IMY gals so muchh..
and to bbyLove,IMYIMY... pray fer me ok..will look frward fer ur spcial daee..muah2..

2009-10-29T22:56:00.000-07:00

heyheyyheyy..

this gonna be a short post..just to wish Ella gurfyy..happy sweet-17th burfdae..

mayy euu olwaes be happy and smile olwaes okaee bby:P

2009-10-20T19:57:00.000-07:00

heyyhooo lovable people on the earth..
huhuuu..its been awhile since ii last update my blog..been busy with stuff and yeah before ii forgot..to ma lovable sisterr.. Chiqaa..happie burfdae sygg.. its eur 22nd burfdae and if eu're reading this.. adeq just wanna wiish euu a best of luck in everythin eu do and may eu and abgDin last infinity.. though we seldom mit up nowadaes,just remember that im here for youu if you need me and will olwaes remember you..

okaee..its the first day of the week.. sian..as usual.. kind of abit hyper startin..but things change when its approachin the end of the day at school...just a word to somebody..
if you dun like mie or mai attitude..eu may say it directly to my face..okaee??!~!!
okii,family abit disappointed this few days..dun realie understand the course im taking right now..and dun even realise they hurting me..okaee..
right now im mainly depend on Love for support cause ma family are no longer supporting..
dun blame me if one day ii were to fall and refuse to stand up again..
cause right now im dragging myself to school..and trying hard to endure all this myself..

overall ii had great fun..got to slack awhile with Love after school..
bbieLove forced me to eat sumtinngg...walaaooo SOURRluhhx..
and heheee..ii had super great time though its awhile only..
and thanks for lendin me eur earr,ii appreciate it so much dear2..
ILY..taww..

to bbyGF..cheer up okae dearr.. ii dun wish to see eu in this conditionn..it will be over,ii mean the stress gonna be over soon..just have to endure with it at the moment and it will be worth it..i'll be here when eu need..i won't promise ii can make eu smile again,but ii can lend eu ma ear and shoulder to cry on and lett go of everitin..

2009-10-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

Since we had come this far,So let me end this fight,Now,see clearly and read my lips,Don't let it out from your sight.Just wanted you to know,That I never seriously like you,No,not even once,It's true,that's how I feel..Another thing is that,You've never once crossed my mind,I know I sounded cold,But it is indeed,not a lie..If one day,you had to leave,And ask if i would cry,I'll straight away give you a "NO",And followed by a sigh..If I were to pick,Between my life and you,I'll tell you,it'll be "my life",Cause that's how i really feel..

For all these mnthh...Then I continued...

.Indeed it is a fact,That I never really like you,Don't worry,my dear,Cause "love",is what i actually do..I really cant deny,That you've never crossed my mind,Cause the truth is,That you're always kept inside..If you were to leave,And really wish that i would cry,I'm sorry,i won't,Cause' I'm not willing to say goodbye..If I were to pick,I definitely won't pick you,Cause you "are" my life,Believe me, it's true..

babyy..

the reason why i copied this from one of the website ..is bcoz ii wanna eu to know how much you meant to me..we've gone through both ups and down for the past few month..and ii guess this sumhow make our r/ship bonder cause we manage to understand more and more about each other.ILYsm dearr..thers nth can replace those love and care that eu've showered me with...and mostly thers noone can ever repplace eu..

2009-10-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

HaLooOoOooHaAaLlOoooO~!!!

its the first day of school todayy..superr excitingg and look forward for it..was early todayy..wow..randomm..huahuahuaa..

misses school damn muchh..ii mean its better then stuck at home..rottingg..right..

okieokiiee..met up with lovable mates and gotten our timetablee..

isshh..realie got no comment..and yeahh we are needed to use our course strap...idk how it was spell..so understandunderstood okae..

apart from all those new update.. we've gotten our new assignment.from Mr.Riduan and Ms.Sri's class..okiiee..realie have to studiee hardd..

anywayy above pctures was being snap..as ii was waiting for love to finish his work...

snap2..non-edited tawww..

anyway to Love..Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."

If I had one wish.

If one desire could come true.

If I had one wish.

My wish would be you.

If I could choose.

I would stay in your arms forever.

Our hearts would fuse.

And our love would become an endeavor.

I would wish for you to stay with me.

For you to be my love.

You would be my hearts key.

Forever my angel,

my dove

.Forever is a long time.

To require in a single command.

I will write our love in a rhyme.

For it would be my demand.

I would ask of this.

Only with your permission.

Lost in a kiss.

Our love is my ambition.

So I wished upon the star.

The star that reminded me most of you.

My actions seemed bizarre.

But this wish I had to pursue.

If I had one wish.

My wish would be you.

And since I made that wish.

My wish has come true...

ilysmmDeariee..

okaee apart from that been blog-hoppin just now and thers this blog saying about secondary school life.. yeahh..im going through the same ting.. ii mean im also missing those secondary school days so muchh.. those were the days when thers isn't any need for eu to pretend..just to make eurself being accpted...shared problems together wif fellow mates and was there every ups and down...but one thing im glad...despite the distances and situation.. ma fellow mates still remain there..keepin in touchh..and olwaes brought sunshine...its not the sme now,situation..and my class..they seem diff... ii jsut mish mai 3G07,4G08))bnss..united togther wif the teachers who never give up their hope in any of us...and show equally concern.. gawshh.. have ii done the biggest mistake by joing this? though i can proceed to the next level in sec life..okaee..thers no point of dwelling to the past...just proceed and try to accpt everything that i can..IMiss..kambing2KUU and monyet2KUU...

14 more daess..counting

2009-10-10T01:32:00.000-07:00

halooo lovable people that are being blessed on the earth...okaee..shittyy..huahuaa..

anyway just a short post here..

okiii..here ii am posting this here.. despite myself are not really well..

nvm..ii shall end it heree..

need to rest as school's reopenin..

to lovable coursemte...will look frward to meet youu..misses uu people damn much.

to LOVE..iMy..everything gonna be betterr..as long thers eu n mii..

-[[-reminderr~!!!!countingDown
16 more daes to....7th mnthsaryy wif dearieLove..and 17th burfdae for bbyGF...

to bbyGf..best wishes fer urr papers... ii noe euu cann do it..juzt dun pressure eurself too muchh okee..

2009-10-04T04:02:00.000-07:00

HALuuuuuu~!!!

earthlingSS..

This fear I feel deep inside...

follows me around,

never far from my side

Can you promise it will always be us forever ... for eternity ?

No amount of love can erase the fear that another, could take my place?

Painfully arguments are hard to swallow will colored rainbows always follow ?

As we age and grow old could our love die, turning cold ?

Promises that was made..will it be fullfilled or just word?

I know you would give me the stars above yet can you promise me eternal love ?

My greatest fear will always bethat someday... you will stop loving me..

............TODAEE..errmm..went out with family...to my uncle's house which was located at Commonwealth.. have to take bus and change with mrt cause arents are out of town..

went there with lovable siblings:Iqah & Atul..

it was pwitty mch intresting ride..we took our swit time before we reached theree..

heheexx..

aniwaee we had great fun..watch korean dramas and stuff over there..enjoyable except for that auntie of mine..trying to ruin my dae..but ii guess its TOObad luhhkan..

huahua..uncles and auntyy and not to forgt lovable granny who supported mee..pheww..

heeeh..niwae at first thot of sleepin over there.. but then we postpone it to nex week cause iqah has yet to complete her hmwk..and revise for her upcmin exam..after guest went home..three of us..followed by the lovable couple went to tampines..againn..hehee

uncle wanted to buy me the thing that i wished for my birthdayy..woohooo:P

cygg pkcikku..niwaee will meet up with Love tmrww..IMYSMdear..

2009-10-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

heyy BLOGGERR~!!

its been awhile since ii last updated my blog..

computer wasn't in good condition..and apart from that was busy with other stuff..

anywayy lets just post about tings that happen a few days back which i can remember..

on the 3RD october,

went out with Love & hys familie..

oops..forgt to mention that ii met up with Love first after his work and hail a cab to meet up with hys familie..^^^affter that we hailed 2 cab cause his y.b(younger brother) tagging along & OFF to tamines..wooohh:P

went window shopping.. it was fun.. bbie brought pants,shoes and also...psp..

darkBlue..superr nycee..we went to all sorts of malls that we can find there..hehee..

T.M,C.S,T1..wooshhh.. after shoppinn..we went to eat..

after window-shoppin..Love sent me to my aunty's void deck..

have to fetch baby from skool..

rushinng seyyh..cause im mitin Love again after this..

while waiting for me to send bby home..and change for workk..

and blahh.blah..blahh..

heheee..

overall it was fun..going out with themm..

ILYY dearieLovee<3

shall look forward for next tym:P

2009-09-29T09:02:00.000-07:00

aloohaloo..above were the two main photos that was taken on the first day of hari rayaa..
first was taken on the mothers side and second..dadie's side..there are just many other photo taken..but it shall only be uploaded at facebook.because blogspot seems a little bit laggng..

had great fun on my first day hari rayaa.celebrates it wif lovable family members..theyy just bring many sunshine on my daee..Abg mat is not in the pictres..and if his reading this..cause ii gt give maii cuzies the webste here..so here goes.."alamakk bang,it will be beta if euu can join s..maeb nextyearr okehh??...cmat arii raye..maafzahir & batinn.."
niwae ii do enjoy my dae desPite me mself hav

and yeahh above pichas was taKen on the fourth dae of hari rayaa..went oout wif Bbie,monyet2 ku and kambing2 yang aenn..and did ii mention ii was sick on that dae??.was havngg high feverr and the stoopid cough once agaiinn..suckyy right???

ii met up wif bbie,before going to the meeting place..met up wif the gals oredi..and off to heran's housee..oopss..eran's house lerr..heheexx..kecohh luhh at umah eran..cause its been awhile since we last met up wif each other..so..eu guys can guess hw kecoh we aree.. i was not allowed to dring gseous drink..if not later bbie,&bby scold..aiyo..its fer mai own good rite..takpe2..after umahh eran..we went to few other house..inclusive mine..huhuu..& did ii mention that bbie was on the night shift,but his shift starts at 10... thanks bbie..for joinin mii&ma gurf..ILYSM~!!..and thanksdearie gurfiee..for the wonderfl dae.. shall look ferward for our 'fishingg outinn aFter bb's O.. SO LONGG..

2009-09-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

haloo earthlingss~!!!
its been awhile since ii last updated mai blog.. been busy wif stuffs like F1 and hari raya's gathering..photos will be uploaded soonn.. in the next post..will do..there are just many photos..
aniwaee thers nothing much to say..cause today simply my friends cme to my hous and even some cuzies..so ii can't realie go out todaee..okae luhh shall end it here,for now..will update some later on okee..

...been looking at the photos of eu & me.. those wonderful memories that we've shaared...eversince the dae ii know youu...been reading those messages that was stored in ur phone..the happy one.and even.. ii realie have no idea what's happenin... ii wanna keep this thing in my mind but ii know..i need to et it out...somewherr..and ii gues this is the rght place or me too.. baby,im sorii..ii noe im not perfect for eu.. ii just can't mke eu smile nowadaees like ii used to in the past... all ii wanna is to see those smile on eur face once againn..

'mungkinkahh ini semua akan berterusan sebeginii..
mungkinkahh airmataku akan kerap bergugurann.
mungkinn...

2009-09-18T18:03:00.000-07:00

huhuu... a dae more to HARI RAYAA~!!
niwaee haloo earthLings!..
btw before ii forgtten, ii wanna sae.. 'baby,get wel soon yarhh.. rest well and also dun frget to eat eur medc..." dun overstresz eurself kaee.. ii noe Olevel's approachin & the weather tis few daes hasn't been good..so yarhh..i've just recoverd,and now..eurz.lots of love..bbyGurfwen..

niwaee lets tok about ystrdae..went out wif Love,Jef & hys fiancee..
okaee the ting goes like this.. ii met up with Love early after hys werk... cause Love accmpanyin mi to the Bishan ITE,to collect stuffs..(pass & also shirts) for the F1 thing.. and then we both slacked for a moment..before we went back home to change..to meet up later on..
and guess what, it was pouring real heavy outside..and boz of that..dadie has to sent me to the front bustp..tanx dadie:P
met up wif love and off to bedok Interc..to mit up wif Jef & hys fiancee(frgtten her name..cause i called her kakak,as she's a few years older ten mi. it was mai first time mitin her,and yeah ii was appearently afraid if i can't comunicate wif her...(niwae it wil be loadz of fun if Wani & Firdaus were to join us..maeb the next tyme okae??..)..but it turned out to be the opposite... she's nice and yeah she's the one who started out the cnversation...hehee:D.. we then proceed to GEYLANG..for Buka-ing.. it was superrhh Packedd~!!.. criuzlie.. bumped into a few friends there..unexpected ..niwaee while waitin for bukaing time..we went window-shoppingg... and blah..blah...blahh... hhehee.. there are just too many things tat hapen.. but ii guess,ii dun need to elaorate more on it.. to make the story short.. i realie enjoyed yesterdae outing..wif them..& to love..tanx bby,for spendin the time & make mai dae..despite eu urself are tired after a few daes of not havin enuf sleep..ii appreciate it bbyy..everitinkk..

[i've been feeling scared..bout this pain.. what if ma days are being nmbered..
& ii haf to goo.. hopefulie its not wat i think.. cause ii dun want all this to end..
lookin ferward for te test.but at tha same timee..im nervous and afraid to see the result..]

2009-09-17T05:36:00.000-07:00

haloo earthlings&lovable peoplee...niwae its been awhile snce ii last updated here.. so yahh,here ii am.. ii hasn't been in a good condition.. cause of the terrible headache that reallyspoilsma day,togetha wif those flu and fever that im having now. ii was given 3 daes mc,from monday to wednesdae... will be going for some check up to find the cause of this terrible pain..resting at home today cause ii realie haf not that many energy to even go out of bed... Dad has been a great help, cause he understand the situation im in now and even gave me my medicine on my bed.Mum hasn't been naggy for today. and its all much apreciated.. ii guess no matter what ii need to go to school tmrw...insya'allah..im in need for extra class during hols and ii thot ii wanna try ask if ii can have it.. im left behind..and ii realie in need of it..

ii wonder hows everything at school... missing those noise in class..and those faces whom ii tweasure in class... insya'allah if 'He' allows it, i'll be going to school tomorrow to meet you guys up. furthermore i'll be breaking ma fast wif lovable people tmrw.. BbyLove,BbyGurfwen(MonkeyKushh), and Jeff & hys fiancee..

aniwae hari raya's approaching..so ii guess its tyme for me to said smtink.. it will be in malay, cause its meant for ma fellow muslim's friends.it will be totalie mushy,but its sincerely from mai hart taw~!.. so here goes..

*sakinah ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk mengucpkn camat ari raye maaf zahir & batin kepada semua yang mengenali dirinya, tak kira sesiapa.. dan juga halalkn sagala makanan dan minuman sakinah dan maaf jika sakinah ader terkasar bahse ataw telah menyinngung perasaan tidak kira yang sengaja ataw tidak disengajakan.. maafkn ye:D

2009-09-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

Friends,
We'll always be there for one another.
A thousand memories we share
and a millionmore to come,
Never thought in a million years

we'd ever be friends,
but we were, we were
the best of friends.
You were always there to
stay and listen to what I had to say.
I looked upto you in so many ways,
Now we went ours
eparate ways we didn't say good-bye so
despite my tight grip our friendship left my
grasp, Now my best friend is someone in the
past.
The distance that caused the change of
heart as our friendship grows further apart
maybe one day we can go back,
back to the
day slowly we'll build that bridge to one
another like it but until then don't forget,
ii used to have a friend whom was there olwaes wen ii need her..
who listen to mai sorrow..
and neva get tired of giving hope..
but now..she's gone..
or shall i sae she've disappeared..
many would have realise,
that we were no longer there..
its partially ma fault that tis friendship leads like this..
so im typing this post specially to apologies to the'friend' of mine..
ii know ther are many things to say..
and many things to clarify..
on top of all...ii wanna gave eu ma sincere apologies..
cause i still wanna treasure this frenship of ours..
despite the rocking state..

(ii made the paragraph purple... cause ii wanna eu to noe..tat tis post is for euu..

2009-09-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

haloo lovable peolpe...its my 2nd post for todae

ii dnnoe why but it seem so hard for me to close mai eyes and go off to Lala-land..

joinin baby at there:D

missin hym loadzz.. cause i've not been able to meet hym for the past two daes..

im sorie baby,

we'll mit up soon okeyhh cyg..

anyway to those not interested to proceed on reading this post of mine..

eu may scroll down..okii:D

........................................................................

bby re eu happy bein wif mii.. or eu forcin euself to?

bby how much ii meant in eur life?..

or who am i to youu..?..

cause i'm afraid... afraid that everitink isn't wht ii think..

and feared of being hurt once again..

cause ii noe if one day eu choose to go..

out of ma life..

ii won't be able to stand like ii used to or even continue the way ii am now..

there are just too many things tht we've gone through..

those feeling of being loved & cared from you...

those laughter & sorrow we used to have..

those warmness feeling eu gave,each daes..

those path we used to take together...

those jokes from youu..

& many more...

everything won't be tha same. though ii have frens to cheer mii..

or even try to understand mii..

but ii noe its not gonna be easy..

im saying all this cause im starting to realise..

maeb its true..when eu sae i've change..

its mainly due to those problems which i've faced or e now facing is the one which changed mi..

ii no longer smile like ii used to..

baby,no matter how ii change...

deep down inside im still the gurl eu noe..

& those feelings have never fade from my heart..

ii meant it when ii sae 'I LOVE YOU & WILL OLWAES DO.."

2009-09-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

Love is patient with a life
That brings its share of pain.
We know sometime there is an end
To the most stubborn rain.
We know the sun comes out again
On a world that's fresh and new,
And all the gifts we freely give
Somewhere, sometime accrue.
We know sometimes we have to wait
For life to come around,
And sometimes that it won't, but still
There's some good to be found.
And even when things happen that
Your soul can hardly bear,
Know that I'll be next to you;
My love is always there.

haloo earthLings~!!.. im here to update mai blog again... anyway to ma bbyLove,who may be reading it now.. ii just wanna sae that all those stuff i've mention above..are meant fer youu..
niwaee im at school right now. just complete doing my report and also half-way through mai LPD assignment. still got many things to do.. haishh..
Hari raya's approaching but im not yet prepared for it. My room are in total mess and ther are just many things to do..but yet so little time.. ii just wanna wish for time to pause for a while while ii complete those stuff..but ii kow it won't happen want... or even if it happen, it will be the end of the world right?..
aniwae to ma bby.. bby charlotte... thanks fer tagging syg.. iMY too luhh seyh.. wil mit up soon..ii pwomise..okaee.. and to bby yanie.. best wishes baby for your upcoming Olevel's prelim and eur revision... studie hard kae syg..

==ii wanna apologies to them,though its not all ma fault, but then ii just dunwan to have those feeling of hatred goin on between us.. ==

okiluhh..ii shall end it here.. bubbiez earthLings

2009-09-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

haloo lovable people on the earth..as usual ii apologies for not being able to update mai blog.there are just to many things in mai head right now. one after another.

had some misundersanding with families,and yeah its solved now..

those were the days when ii totally feel like giving up.. there are also part wher both me and love had some misunderstanding too.. ii swear im on the verge in giving up on that period of time... the onlie things that kept me accompany, mai bears and also those tears were the one... which was really in need at that moment..Love were the person ii had at that point when the whole family are against me.thanks baby.

you became the pillar for my strength,

holding me tight,and stand by me ..

when ii was in need for someone.

when im trying hard to endure those obstacles.

baby,ii may have said this many times..

but no matter whet ii just want you to know that you meant everitink to me.

loves youu.

okaee,apart from all those mention above,

ii to wanna post about my burfdae..sperrhh..im 18..wee..

going to take up carlicense..dadie gonna sponsor it all at the end of october..

insya'allah..

those daes will neva be frgtten, lovee euu all:D

before ii forgtten,ii wanna sae thankieu to mai lovable people in mai life... bbyLOVE,bbyMONYET2(yanie bby,irah darl),bbyKAMBING2(erani bby,aicha darlink,alex bestie and xinghao bestie..oops wif ezzat bestie),ito..an also maii lovable bby in mai course..(ella bby,roseline,SP and a few others..) thnkiew fer the wshes and also those gifts.. ii just snap those gifts from the people,which ii treasured till now..

simple yet tasty( burfdae cake from dadie and mumie

minnie mouse,from bbyLove.. (mwahss:D

a card that was made by yaniee,and bestfriend necklace.. syg mnyet

to the person concern,bby..ii apologies for the outing that day. bby, ii'm tweasuring those friendship momnt tat we haf.. and yeap,ii romise the next outin,we'l haf a mix.. okae bby..loves..

has it change?

2009-08-25T20:33:00.000-07:00

haloo earthlings.. sorry for not being able to update my blog for the past few days..
wasn't realie in any mood to do anything right now.. just those confusion that keep lingering in my mind.. had a misunderstanding with love againn.. and yeahh.. this time its..
forget it,ii don't wish to elaborate more on it..let it just be known to me,him & also the almighty,Allah..
anyway ii have this thinking of buying a notebook..
but im using it as my diary... sound childish ryte?.. gawshh.. but ii relie need to let it out.. but at the same time ii don't wish to tell nibody bout it.. nvm.. ii guess for now..
let it just being hidden deep inside..and let those tears keep it accompany..
haish..i've ben slackingg way too much..to Mr Wan,Ms Sri & Uncle Ee... ii'm sorri.. ii promise i'll catch up on it soon.. ii know i've disappointed you guys for the atittude that i'm showing right now.. it will be over..once my mind is at ease.. don't get me wrong,it's not because of him im in this state.. but its just that i've many things in my mind.. families,friends etc.
ii promise...ii'll change..

baby, everytime we had a misunderstanding.. ii don't know why but ii tend to have this feling of insecure.. not because im having doubt on you..or in this relationship.. but im having doubts on myself.. ii shall end it here for now first.. not in the mood..tkinkaire readers!

2009-08-18T00:48:00.000-07:00

2009-08-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

heyyloo earthliNGs...
niwaee before ii continue on typing.. ii just wanna wish singapore a happie national daee.. i meann a belated one..but who cares.. as long as ii do remember it and wishh it..wee:D.. semamngzz~!!..
niwaee sorii cause i've not been updating maii blog..superrhh busyy..ii mean apart from being busy maiself,ma computer can go blogspot once agaiin..pheww~!!..
niwae yeahh before ii forgt..
ii just wanna blog about somethin..something that caught ma attention..
here goes..been blog-hoppin the other dae and yeahh landed up in one of the blogg..its about a relationshiip which ii find it catchyy cause it realie caught ma attention all the way.. *its true tat love is a game for both eu and eur partner.. its also about trust and givng & sharing both happiness and sadness with them at every moment..its not a feeling which eu shuld play.. nn if uu eva love tat sumone, make tem smile the wae tey make eu smile.. it doesn't mean tat onlie a guy have the right to make a girl smile.. cause eu mae not noe whether deep down inside his suffering just to make eu smile.. and will it make a girl happy if their partner are suffering deep inside..and are just faking those smile cause tey dun wanna see those sadness and tears coming down eu..*
**to dearLove..
i had ma greatest time wif eu for the past few daes.. and yeahh thankieuu fer all those bears tat eu've brought fer mii..for everything and every moment..those are shure adorable and yeahh ii'll upload all those pichas in mai next post cause it's all stored in iqah's phone..
ii hope eu too had a great fun last weekend..n now im starting to misshh yarr.. :D..

08092009--
met up withh love,adawiyya,dylla and sabariah to watch G.I joe at bugis.. had a bad starter on that dae..thers one jjerkk.. gawwshh..dun even noe who's him.. dun wish to elaborate more on it.. niwae Love facial expression started to change a bit..but yeahh still manage to make him smile..
did ii meantion ii was wif ada and love at Love's void deck before proceedin to mit wif sab's and dylla at bugis.. we were a bit late.. sorrii gals.. and afta met up wif tem..brought tickes and off to play arcade and eat while waitink fer the movie to start as it's still early.. woohoo.. bbiee play and won for mii two cute disney cartoon.. wooshh..altogether ii had four of temm..gawshh..complete one sett...weee..thnks deariie.. to cut everitink short ii enjoyed mai dae with those lovable people..and yeahh..i've also gotten a minnie mouse from dearie.. hopefulie euu guys also enjoyed eur dae..the wae ii do..
niwaee G.I JOE a nice show.. rating (09.5/10)
090809
went out wif love again...and did ii mention maulid joining us?.. we want to catch a movie wif the title 'where got ghost' but sumhow maulid was late and yeahh the next show will b midnight..so we changed our plan and watched 'up' instead.. niwae while waitink fer maulid to reach suntec..we went to window-shop.. brougt keychainn.a heart shaped with a keyy.. weee.. niwaee slack sumtymes wif maulid afta the show and we seperated wif maulid at the bustop.. we ten walk2..change bus.. cause thers no direct bus from therr.. and did i mention maii ezlink card are missing~!!!..gawsh~!!!! im soo gonna b deadd..niwae ii had lots of fun wiff euu just now..thanks dearr:D..
UP(rating 10/10)..the animation is damnn nicee.. and its a reccomended to watchh tat..

2009-08-05T21:55:00.000-07:00

heyhhoo peoplee..
above is a picha whichh i've edited ystrdaee..
do it maself..hopefulie Love will love it..heehh:D..
niwae im at skool's lab now..
feeling damn cold despite me wearing jackett..gawshhh..grrr:(
niwae i haf this feeling tt im goin o be sick soon cause i've been feeling restles & also sore throat.. nn headache toohh..gawssshh~!!!!
fergt it.. aprt from all that..maa DMI has complete..at last..
wil upload the picha next week okaeyy..cause its stored at maii DMI's lab computerr..
okaeeluhh..to those readinn ma blog..hapie hols.. and to maii lovable gurfwen.. best of luck dear fer urr prelim & to lovee.. iiLYY:))

2009-08-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

haloo EarthLings~!!..

aniwaeee ii dun realie have nitink much to sae..except this few.. Best of luckk dearie Gurfwen fer eur prelims and imm MIsinn ya maii dearieeLove.. a few more daes to go for..yeahh..uu noe i noe..hehe:D..okiluuhh bubbiezz:D

2009-08-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

haloo earthLings~!!!

okii before ii proceed on typin, above was the picha being snap in class todaee..

and yeahh as usual ii edit here and there..weee..thanks ella fer guiding me along in thiss..harts yaa:D..

niwae skool..as usual..just that many things took place todae & tats made many people feeling low..okaee luhh..apart from tat..assignment are piling up..now doing assignment..'storyboard"..

sound easy ryte..but NOO..~!!..superhh tha hard..gawshh.. okiuhh..shall end it here people..cause im going off now..will update later kae..

to bbieLove..missinn ya loads taw..its been daes since ii mit euu..(will be mitin hym todae.. )

wee..okiluhh..taa

2009-07-29T19:48:00.000-07:00

haloo earthlings~!!

its thursdae todaee andd yeahh ii woke up earlie todaee..thnks to dearie Love ferr wakin mii up fer skool..sorri dearr..cause i trouble euu..

niwaee woke up..siap-siapIn.. and off go to skool..love having hys 2nd dae of course.. takinkaire syg..:D

skool as normal..apart from SW..totalie bored..ii meann..bored to see pretenders that just think theyy are realie...**** ryte..tryin to be nice but behind..gossip and wateva shit..okaee..uu should noe beta who im referin to..and yeahh just a reminder... NOBODY's born to be perfect..not even euu~!..get that rght okaee.. some may have their attitude but ii guess they are way beta tenn euu peeps.. ii mean thers no reason to act or be different from hu uu are..just be eurself.. and if euu dislike mii or wateva shit.. ii swear ii dun realie gif a damn okaee..

okaee..totalie pissed off wif eur attitude and the way euu actingg sooo 'good".. Okaee.. totaliie..

euu hate mii?..or the rest?..gwashh..stop bein so childishh luhh.. that is like secondaryy skool daes attitude..mind euu..

okaee luhh dun wish to elaborate more about it.. makin mii realie pissed off..

and ii bet that most people will tend to hate eu in silence too..though tey did not mention anitinkk..just change ur attitude before eu haf many people hating uu in futuree

hmm...

niwaee yesterdaee was superr enjoyable..ii mean ii realie enjoy mai dae yestrdae wif Love.. met up wif Love at IMM after his course..gawshh.. budakk bedok tronn jurong..almk..like stranger like tat seyhh.. heeh.. niwaee we watch 'murderer..or isit called murderer'??..ii dunnoe.. i've frgetten..but wateva it is..its totalie awesome storyy..though its in chinese language..hehe:D..

okiluhh shall end it here.goin to do maii assignmennt..byye people..:D to bby ILYY:D

2009-07-28T22:58:00.001-07:00

huhuuu.. secondd postt fer todaee.. gawshh..above is an edited picturee .. ii mean ii coloured it usiin photoshop..randomm luhh siaa:D..

niwaee skool has ended..for todae and im gonna b off from here afa postingg this:D..

meetin bbyLovee laterr..so yahh..niiwae skool was boriin..totalie~!!..

tats the reason whyy im editin those pichaa..heehh..

at the very least ii practice usin photoshop..heeh:D..

okiiluhh will update laterr kaee..bubbiez:D

2009-07-28T19:52:00.000-07:00

lovee is somethingg whichh requires individual to forgive and forget... no matter how complicated and hard the thing is, there can always be another chance..
bbiee,ii did those thing that i know im suppose to do bcoz iiLove yaa..
and its not only giving either of us a chance to start a new..but to give this relationship a new start and to last till the end but not now..cause trulie im not prepared to continue life withoutt uu in it..there are just too many things..and so many memories between us..apart from those trust that we both had fer each otherr..hopefulie things just gonna improve between us and thers no more frown faces..instead a happiee faces.. Iloveeyouu&& tats truuee..:D..

okii dun mind those random* words mention above..its meant for lovable personn in mai life..niwaee to ella bbyy.. yeap dearr..ii rmbr about those ring that eu've mention..ii realie appreciate eurr thoughts but ii guess its not yet the tyme..thankss ferr makin mii smilee:D..
to yanaa.. nnti kyna tnyeknn cause maybee yaniie nga busy studyin fer prelim..BBYgf sygg..if eu're readin this.yanaa(kecik's gf.. nided eur help in redesign the layout for kecik's fwensta..

okiluhh will end it here for now..gott to go..its lunchh time now..taa:D

2009-07-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

haloooo earthLings~!!
beforee ii continuee on typinn.. ii wanna sae thnkieww to maa BabyElla ferr helpin mi to do the pivturee abovee..thnks taw..
niwaee i'm currentli not in the mood to update on anitinkk..
just needed a break from this..
will update soonn..tkinkairee:D

2009-07-26T19:49:00.000-07:00

haloo eathLings~!!..its mondae todaee... & once againn its mondae bluee..

heeh..not realie in the mood to do maii assignment but what to do.. the monday blue will end soon..hopefulie...heeh:D..

anyway to Dearie lovee..hapie 4th mnthsryy dearr..

how time goes by so fast & its our 4th month bein tgetha..

it feels just like yestrday im posting about our 3rd monthh..heehh..

hopefulie this relationship of ours will last till infinityy..

ilovee youu..

[maii heart seems to be filled with euu..truthfulie if one dayy ii have to let you go...ii realie donnoe how things gonna be..bby,if one dayy eur heart is no longerr fer mii.. tell mii beforehand okae..cause ii need to prepare myself to continue life without euu.. thoughh ii noe its gonna be supperh hard to do that..thats why ii need you to tell mii before okaee..]]

and to BbyMariamm..macehh sygg fer wishinn.. syg bbyMariamm manyy-manyy taww~!..niwaee to bbyGF yaniie..windu yanie & best wishes fer eur prelim kae sygg..okeyyhh..apart from all that..im now at maii class..just compleete the assignment given..so yahh..here i am bloggingg..

errmm..its gonna rain soon..gawshh..gonna be freakin cold..but nehmind..used to it..

2009-07-24T10:48:00.000-07:00

halooHalOOO earthLings~!!
wee..its weekend..at lastt.. superrh look ferward fer weekend to come leyhh..
assignments are piling up once againn.& yeahh..as normal nid to hurryy-hurry do it:))..
photographyyING" is the best "winkss"
niwaee.. there are many things that cause mi to look ferward fer this weekend..
okayhh here goes..
** maii headache aree distracting mi from focussin..
**tiringg..superhh..
**and most important thingg is ma 4thmnthsaryy wif love..
gawshh..how time goes by so fast..its going to be our 4th month togethaa..
loviinn hymm & lookin ferward for tomorrw..weee:)
okaee above is a picha of mai 2 fav korean actor & actress..
ii find it interestin cause theyy are beinn drawn as cartoon.."claps" for whoever who drew it..
aniwae todaee..great..watchh "jangan pandang belakang congkak"
wif love & adaawiyya..a hilarious storyy..and some part are scary too..hehee
ratinn(8.5/10)..should watchh..recommnded leyhh..
spent time till evening wif love..cause adawiyya has to go home early..
and overall ii enjoyy maii fwiday..tanx to LOve & adawiyya..maceeh..syg kowngg:P..syg zul lebihh..hehe:PP
okeluhh ii shall end it here..as thers nutink moree..
dearrILOVEuuu:))

2009-07-23T19:09:00.000-07:00

haloooHaloo earthLingss~!!
ii'm currently at school's lab now..i've finish doing my stuff and currently bloggin for a while...
okae..before thatt to Mr. Ridhwann..
get well soon aites.. & haff a gud rest..:))
okaee to Love.. glad tat eu're recoveringg and yeahh the picha above is meant ferr euu..
yeapp..ILoveYouu... dearr..2more days to go..wee..
lookin ferward for it..& iihope uu too..
okeluhh shall end it here..for now...will update soon okeyh later when ii reach home..
wee..mitinn hymm todaee....okaee sux,im beinn so childih here..hehee..
okaeeluhh Love..IMYsm..and to everibodii.. harts euu all..
too bbyGf..rinduu kaw luhh..sumpahh taq bedekk...

2009-07-22T19:47:00.000-07:00

Haylooo earthLings~!!!..

Above was the picture I created for my assignment. Like I’ve mention on my previous post…its mainly referring to myself being trapped inside a glass…and was being leave alone till it melt… it is roughly the same about me. So don’t wish to elaborate more on it okay. Lets talk about my presentation yesterday… gawsh, ii was totally having a nervous breakdown… I don’t really know why…it’s not as though its my first time present my art work in front of my course mates.. Gawshh...Maybe because i've been feeling restless for the past few days..
Assignments are piling up and yeah…I guess i must spent lesser time slacking… cause I really got no more time to waste…okay, enough of school’s stuff…
I’m now at my school’s lab…changing my blogskins…to a new one...Gawshh…. I’ll update on the links when I’ve reached home okay.
Anyway to Love…3more days to go..
Counting to that day…love, get well soon okay dear…
IMYY:P

2009-07-21T00:08:00.000-07:00

haloo earthLINGS~!!

above is a picture which i created on mai own for mai assignmnt..a picture of a candle which are being light up inside a light bulb..iii guess you can roughly know what is the meaning of the story rytee??.dun wish to elaborate more about the picture..cause all ii can say is that this picture has its linked to mii..

okaee..enuff about the picture..

ii'm currently at maii skool lab..waitink fer presentation tyme...

soo all the best for mii..

scarryy seyhh:((

ii shall update it when ii reach home later okaeyhh

to Love..get well soon okaeyyh syg:))

2009-07-19T08:20:00.000-07:00

harloo earthLings~!!!
im sorry cause i have not been updating my blog..
gawshh..i've not been myself lately..
and im wondering whyy..okaee..don't wish to elaborate more on that..cause ii don't really have those answer to those question itself..
okaee..lets talk about those things that have taken place a few days back..
too many things on my head..ii guess..
ermm.. love is currentlyy unwell and was given a few days off from work.. get well soon taww..
do rest moree, okehh..
nott being able to meet him todae cause im having a familyy 'housee cleaning'
IMYluhh seyhh..dunnoe if euu misz miee too..:PP
the fasting month is approaching..so mai family wanna start cleaning here and there as not to tire themself out duringg the fasting month itself..
anndd yeahh..august is approaching and in a few days time..im going to be a yearr olderr..gawshh-tuenye aquu~!!
anndd yeapp before ii frgett..
haf euu guys heard about the makcik who sells the keropok?..
scarryy luhh sia..
totalie..tat stuupid idiotic makcikk..totalie bad luhh seyhh..
because of herr..im havingg this fearr..stooppid ryte~!!..
thanks Love fer accmpnyingg mii onthe fone despite eu urself are not realie feeling tat well tat dae..
thnks dearr..
okaee great..nid to end it here.
takinnkairee..bubbiez

to love..
be strong okeyh syg..
no matter wat..im here..
ii wont let euu go through tis alone..
NEVA..
im heree..olwaess when uu need mii..
and dun werie dear..eu will recover..insya'allh..
think ntink bout it..
have a guud rest..and soon u'll recover keyhh dearr..

2009-07-16T19:51:00.000-07:00

“Love works in miracles every day: such as weakening the strong, and strengthening the weak; making fools of the wise, and wise men of fools; favouring the passions, destroying reason, and in a word, turning everything topsy-turvy.”
Those heart of mine is fragile...once brokenn..theres no way everything goin to be in the same shape as original even if you try mending it.

okaee..those phrase above meant a lot and it totalie refers to myself.okaee..im currently at mai school lab..doing the inanimate assignment...trying to last-minute edit it..cause the date-line is today..oakee..apart from all that..Love and ii are currently back to normal.. thanks dearieLove for sending me to school today.. despite you yourself are tired after coming back from your work..appreciate it loads dearr..appreciate every bits that you've done for mii and also for this relationship of ours..niwaee..to adawiyya..get well soon tawukk~!!.. and dun fergt to have a good rest if eu're readin this blog of mine..wee..

okaeokae..will update later okaee..meetin Love later onn..weee:PP

2009-07-15T18:59:00.000-07:00

heyyyhoo earthLings~!!
currentlie in mai lab posting this post as ii got nutinkk much to do..cause i've fergtten to bring maii stuff to take the pictures..
haiyoo..__so frgetful:p
okayhh..lets just talk bout just now.. slept at about 4 plus as ii can't even close maii eyes..just kept lookinn at all those pichas that ii took with Love inside maii ipod..keep browsing thruu.. ii realie dunnoe wats inside ma mind..luckily thers music to accompny mii..
hmm..dun wish to elaborate more.. im just goin with the flow:))

niwae tat picha was edited at class..cause ii got nutink else to do:))
okaeluhh..ii shall end it here.. takinkairee people:)
to love..iMissEu:))
haishh..lets hope tat everitink gnna be okae dearr..causee ii wanna us to be hapie once again..

2009-07-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

what does the word Love meant to all of you?..

for me love is something which needed both trust and also communication..

when either one of this is gone.. thers nutink much left to sae..its basically by maii own ppast experience too..do anione of you noe the real meaning of it?..if uu does.. tagg mii woteyhh:)

niwaee ii guess nutink much to sae..not in the mood to updatee..will update soon okeyh..

niwae to Love..ii do sense sumtink is amiss..anitinkk..ii just wanna saee IMY..

just a few daes to go dear...

2009-07-13T18:34:00.000-07:00

let just hope that ii can still smile though thers many things hurtful surrndinn mii now.. evrytinkk seems to be diff..and ii guess im startinn to give up.. keepinn maself busy wif skool's stuff.. let just hope tat it will totalie keep me busy to think bout nitinkk..okeyhh:))
gawshh..its soo the random werds cmingg out...
haishh..let just hope everitink wil be better tomorrow..

niwaee.. skool has kept mii busy this few daes..totalie busy..
and one thing now..im lookin ferward to skool again..those loval;e group of fwens tat im with now..gawshh..teyy totalie remind mii of maii scondaryy skool..
ii mishh themm..maii secondaryy mates..those monkeys and also lovable classmates..thru ups and down..and also we had our fun daes...
huhhuu..ii just gonna proceed and neva looking back again..wats past is past..
those were the daes..now ii have to move on..but ii guess its thruu wen most people sae..eu totalie gonna miss secondary skool life after eu graduated..
ii agreed..and 4G(08) mates..if eu're readinkk..euu've made maii sec. daes sumtink which ii treasured most.._mis playinn thruu and dare games wif euu all luhh..__hehehe:P
okae sux~!!..memories lingerin in maii mind..monyetkuu syg..euu're bein missed the most..luhh..
gonna proceed to buy that necklace kae gurfwen..soon2..
and not to ferget studie had taw...Olevel reachin kae syg..

niwae tats a picture of maii bbySister..she's brought laughter everitime..
and she's the main reason why im going strong now..in facing all this..
onllie the onlie HE knows wats goin thru in maii mind and wat im goin thru now..dun wish to elaborate moree..

niwae to Love..
things has make it hard for us to communicate in a proper manner a few daes back..
let just hope that thing might get better for us..
cause bbie,ii just dunwan both of us to get hurt...if this were to go on..
eu meant a lot to mii..and hurting euu is not and will not be in maii list..cause it will hurt mii too..Imy..
okelaah.ii shall end maii post here..update more later okeyhh..tkinkairee:)

2009-07-11T19:43:00.000-07:00

soo many things to doo..

gawshhh..

aniwaee to LOVE..gonna miss youu so muchh..

not bein able to mit you todae..

tkinkaire..will update more later:))

dearr

when i first saw you,

ii was afraid to meet you,

when i first met you,

ii was afraid to hold you,

when i first held you,

i was afraid to kisz you.

when ii first saw you,

ii was afraid to lose you.

and now that ii love you..

ii am afraid to lose you

2009-07-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

haLoO eAThhlOVABLE people..

gawshh..its weekend now..ii mean..how time goes by so fast..it has been a week afta skool reopen.. and yeap2..ii got manyy things to complete by tomrw..if ii can..insya'allahh...

**maii character Designn(mrrMole)

**maii inanimate shapes..

gawshh..its gonna be superhh hardd..doin some research now..while waitinkk to wake bbie up at 3am in the mawninkk..

niwaee above was some pichaa ii took wif love a few daes back..if im not mistaken..on thursdaee..ii guess..we were at the libraryy..and soo SNAP!SNAP!..usin bbie's phone..weee:P niwaee thnxx loads sygg ferr bein therr just noww..ii nearly gave up..but tenn.. thosee werds and stuff.. uu advises mii otf.. ii guess ii shall not give up now..thers still many things to do..nn so little time..ILYhunyeyhh:)

niwaee ii realiee misz those familie bondness in ma familiee..

those were the tyme ryte?.. nevamind..just fergt bout itt..

niwaee LOVE,thnxx fer accmpnyingg mii just noww..despite euu feeling tired and stuff..uu still accmpnyy mii to kill those time awaee..i've broughtt ma colourr-shmpoo..wooo..at last..hehexx:P..and also printed sum pichas wif love..weee..love thosee pichas taww dear..

niwaee did ii ferget to mntion.. ii went to Hamid&Son earlier on wif grandnyy,unvleUcuu & 2 of my auntyy.. wee..guess hu i saww??.. saw KC luhh seyhh..unexpected..

ii was busyy admiring one of the master room tat are bein displayedd whenn KC & uncleM interupt it..

ME--auntyy,lawa knn bilikk nii..iif onlii ii haf onee like tis..

KC--lawa,surroo urr dad buattf fer uu..

UncleM--(in a soft tone)..nakk cm gnii,get married cpat2..suro hubieyy buat..

aunty--wooshh,the grandma bhnd uu bth luhh..(pointingg to bhnd uncleM)..

* four of us laughh luhh seyhh..woohoo.. ((**biey2,myy auntyy noe bout euu..cause she was browsinn thru maii phne taww tad..she gave us her blessingg..wweee..*overjoyedd*

okiluhh..got to end it heree..nid to continue on ma researchh...bubbiezz

2009-07-09T19:48:00.000-07:00

halooo lovable peoplee on the earthh..
im currently at skool lab..havin a breakk.. soo ii guess while waitinkk..why not update sumtink ryte?..hehee..
gawshh..maii fluu cmes backk..hated itt soo muchh..
haishh~!!..
maeb its because of lackk of sleep..
but ii just can't seem to sleep at night..
ma mind just go sumwher else..
gawshh,no matter what
pleasepleasee..ii need to recover fast..
tats ferr shuree..dun wishh to suffer tis againn..
okieyy..backk to wat i was about to sayy...
skool todae..relaxinn..cause ii onlie haf one class todae and it will end at 12..
mitink Love afta tat..
Love seems to be unwell..damnn..im weried bout hym..nn ii dun wishh neither do ii wanna see him sufferr with those sickness..
babiee,get well soon aites..
okii..got to end it here cause ii gt ntinkk else to sae..
will update soon okeyhh..
ImYdearr..

2009-07-09T06:27:00.000-07:00

halooo-Haloo lovablee peeps..outt ther readinkk here..
sorrie ferr not been updatink maii blog..
maii computer has just recovered from lost of cnnectionn..
and are now fullie recovered..
soo will be updatinkk manyy stuff heree..
to Love..heree come the post..after a longg daes of not updatinkk..hehee..

beforee ii continue on writin bout ma post here..
bbyGF..if euu're readinkk this..
ii saw a necklace ferr fwenship which ii find it interestingg.
ii was window-shoppinn wif love tat tyme wen ii saw tat necklace..
wanna go visit tat shop wen bth of us free?..
fwenship dae are cminkk..so ii guess..ii wanna buy sumtinkk like we used to last yearr..wokeyhh
& to Love..
ii guess i've been totalie iritatin fer the past few daes..
and ii shall realie thank you cause euu still here wif mii..thoughh i've causes us to haf manyy misunderstandinn..
wif maii childishh attitude.. im soo gonna change tat atitude of mine..insya'allahh..
and bbiie.. ii ust wanna sae many-many thankieuu ferr everitinkk tat eu've done.. appreciate it loadz..
and im loviin euu more and more eachh daes..

WOKII..heres maii post ferr the dae..
above was just sumtinkk dedicated ferr maii two lovable people..
o the 4th of july was maii last dae of werk..
despite those tiring and superr-toughh werkk..not so tough la..but still cann..
im just goonna miss that werk of mine..
maii lovable werkingg cllegue..Kak Asmahh and many more..
and superr gonna mishh those customers..
the many-many different type of customer who ii interacted with duringg ma werkinn daes..and the most i mishh is the superrhh-game cornerr fer teddie bearr..Love..we'll go and playy therr cann in the future wen bothh eu and mii are free..can..cann..plshh..hehe:P..
okii apart from tat the new term fer skool has started..
when ii first enterr..totalie surprise..cause skool look like as thoughh we are in a hospitall..ii guess we realie had no choice ryte..
its beter to be SWINE-FLU free..ten suffer from it..
classmates has been the same..just tat some has just changed..
ii guess its beta to be this wae..loe those chinese mates..gawshh..mixingg wif tem make mii miss maii BBYGF moree..causee mii and herr olwaes had ourr cwazie momnt..
apart form fwens..neww things to learnn..and everitink's gettin harder..gawshh..
just prayy hard and studie hard to achieve those gioals..
pwomise many people oweadii..tat no matter wat..will proceed to polyy..to further maii studies in two years time..insya'alahh..
okiiluhh..ii guess..im endinn it here..
got to do maii sketchess ferr mrRiduann classs & Uncle Ee's too..
soo update more next time wokeyys..
::))I'MmissinYouuLove

2009-07-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

In a relationship,
you have to be able to trust.
There isn't an almost or a maybe
it's an absolute must.
You have to trust
that he'll make you smile.
That he'll make you feel better
when you are sad.
You have to trust that he won't leave you,
and forget the good times.
You have to trust that he really loves you
.And that his feelings are really true.
You have to trust
that he won't suddenly fall out of love.
And find some other girl who's "sent from up above.
"You have to trust that he'll be faithfulin all he says and does.
And isn't just playing you, to get his daily buzz.
You have to be able to trust that he has trust in you,
and that he'll see his promises through.

It takes time to develop trust in someone, especially for people who have been hurt before. Who do you trust? What are the characteristics that support that trust? If the relationship is important to you what are the small steps you can do to restore betrayed trust?When trust is absent, there are deep and hidden animosities. Respect is lost and our relationship is compromised as our energies go into manipulation and protection rather than working together towards a shared vision.So it is when we learn to trust others with our secrets, our fears, and our uniqueness. There is a period of time in every relationship when we peel off layers of protection in response to the growing warm feelings we share. As we shed our protective coats, we become more vulnerable to hurt or betrayal, but we also have the potential of building trusting relationships in which the partners can share deep feelings and grow as individuals.When you trust your partner, you will be protected. You know you won't be hurt, betrayed, or ridiculed. You can let down your guard and really be yourself with your partner, allowing a feeling of complete security to flow through the relationship. You don't need to censor or edit your conversations, or alter your behavior (as long as your words and behavior are kind and courteous). You can open your heart to the other person. And, as I mentioned earlier, this deep trust and mutual vulnerability forms the very foundation of lasting and loving relationships.

2009-07-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

HaLOoHaLOo pEOplE oN EaRthHH..

yeahh a little update on wat haf happen earlier on just now..

met up wif babiee..and slackk wif hymm fer a while beforee bie call on firdaus to ask wherr aree teyy..ii meant fir and wanii..dun wish to elaborate the place that the four of us went to..onlie eu noe ii now..ehee..:P..

to wanii and firr..hapiehapiee slaluuu okii..and to love..ii guess we haf let those past behind us.dun wishh to drag tat matter any longer..cause truthfuliie it hurts alot..ryte..

niwaee backk to it just now..slackk wif temm fer a while before we went our seperate waes..gawshh..paiseyyhh seyhh justt now..hehee..

bbiee accmpanyy mii to consult the doctor as i've not fulie recovered..and maii medc are all finished..and off we went backk home.

thanks sygg..

.ohh maii..speakin of medc..i've not eaten mine..will eatt afta updatin this..okiee..hehhee:PP

niwae to love..dun wishh to see uu in moody face..must olwaes smile okii..alamkk..nnti org kterr gila plakk law snym slaluu..apedah kyna..hahaxx..understand understood je luhh kae sygg..

appreciate and treasurin everyy momnt dear.

and to maii bbyGf.. ii noe it does feel scaryy to fall fer sumone again afta ourself bein hurt too many times..but syg,eu musn't gif up and neva stp frm opein eur hart..again fer sumone new..cause eu neva noe tat they mae b the ryte person fer euu..insya'allah.. and as fer those age diffrences..heck care bout it..let people tok wat teyy wanna sayy..just believe in wateva euu do kae sygg.. and jiayo.. studie hard kaee..will see euu at SP.. tats our pwomise..missinn euu bbyGF and loviin euu boiffyy

wanii..ii lost eur linkk..doo tag mii wif eur link attachh kae sygg.. if eu're readink this..and bbyy Nurazleen..if euu're readinkk maii blog..hapie sweet-seventeenthh sygg..nurazleen a.k.a titi...mae alle ur wishes cmes truee sygg..and maee allah bles euu wif wateva euu doo..love yaw..andd ii do miss ya tooh dearie frenn:)

2009-07-01T19:54:00.000-07:00

halooo maii dearriee readerr..readiinkk maii blog now..

sowiie fer not bein able to update maii bloggy..been realie tired and apart from that i've not recovered fulie from maii sickness..gawsh..need to recover fast..skool startink next weekk..can't realie wait fer the opening of the school..but at the same tyme im feelin scared too..questions lingeringg in maii mind,will skool be the same like before..will everybody goonna be as bond as before..and will we have the happy faces from everybodyy.. ii just hope tat it will still be the same..cause ii realie wann to look ferward in goin to skool not dragginn maself to it..

owkiiee..

okieyyhluhh..apart from all thatim curentlie missin maii bbyGf.. yaniie..wonder hows her skool haf been..and wanna wishh all maii fellow love hus sittingg fer their Olveel this cminkk oCtoberr.. all the bestt yaww.. kynaa will b heree if euu in need of help kae.. realie miss maii secndryy skool daes.. gawshh..iit has been totalie a while since maii scndry skool daes.. grown wayy matured now.. ii meann maii thinkingg.. and reallie unexpected personn..miraa.. if eu're readinkk maii post now..im sorii fer all those childishh act of miee..wen we are still in our secndryy skool daes kae.. find it funnie thoughh..hehe:p..hopefulie we cann be frens..if euu wanna it..okii..

fergtt the past,let bygne..be bygone..

aniwaee to Love..

yeapp.. thinggs just happen last nightt..wat ii mean is tat..we realie had everytink talk overr..im sorrii cause im the cause of it..and ii noe ii need to gain eur trust backk now..and as fer mii..ii need to frgett tat everitink have happen..a few daes backk.. ii justt wanna both of us to be like the wayy we were beforee.. tats all im hopinn noww..

okii eplii frrmm all thosee huu has tagged mii..uneplieed tagg..

mariamBBY.--will linkk uu kaee sygg..dun weriee..i'll put on myy links as soon as i found all myy longlost linkk..okii bby..uu're bein missed byy mii..

mail--huhuu..macehh..dude..see yaa tis cminkk mondae okii.. hapiehapie slaluu:))

2009-06-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

is fate repeating on its own again?.. Or am I making my mind get so wild as to think of those past again?.. How I wish that this thing will stop now and let me feel the ease of my mind.. I've gone through the same thing back then when im still with my past... must I go through it all over again. must I?.. I guess I shall just let my hairs down and just follow the flow...I don't wish to hear neither do I want to talk about this. I'll let this fate of mine decide for me, cause im tired of going through and hurting myself like the way I used to. I wont stop. neither I'll let you continue being in contact with her, cause im in position to stop you cause the fact is she knows you longer than me and she once meant something in your life. I just need the feeling of secured when im with you once aagain..when I first know you and when I first fall for you. that's all im asking from you..without havin this fear in losing youu like i've lost them..

niwaee dun mind wat i've type above..its just a feeling of fear tat haunts mii..againn.
apart from all that..theres ntinkk muchh hapennin..im just hopin to recover fast befre skool starts..okiuhh gt to rushh..will update soon okki..llovee..tcrr

2009-06-27T21:47:00.000-07:00

haloooHalooo felloww humans..
befree ii beginn..ii wannaa saee a thousand thankieuu ferr thosee huu haf relinkk ma url..to this onee..maa previous blog has too many error in it..& ii guess..i'll just make a new blog to replace that blog..mayb therz a gud ting in makinn a brand new one..able to fergt the past muchh more fasterr..hehee:P..
okiilluhh here goess maii new post heree..
been busyy wif work schedule and not being in good condition make it hard for mii to update maii post..been down wif fluu and all kind of other sickness rite noww.. its NOT SWINEE okeeyhh~!!..ii guess its the airr tat ii breathe inn..havee gerrmm..heheee..
apart from all thatt..
evritink seems to b okaee.. except frm ma familie..therz just sumtinkk wrong everidaee..but gawshh am ii glad to have bbielove byy ma sidee..giviin mii support and olwaes lending mii his earr and a shoulderr to cryy.. okii apartt from himm..bbygf too.. olwaes therrwen ii nided sumone to talk too.. kynna sygg kaamuu semuaaa<3..

okiluhh till here jekk okii..im in need of some rest as ii just taken maii medc..
takinnkairee okii..to bbylovee &bbygf..iMY & iLY bothh many2